this is story of my life. im just people. im Mr R who live in someone place in south east asian. part of my life use for study but i have moment love in my life. first im including who man dont need love with woman. my day use for learn and play games. when junior high school im still opinion who need girl if im happy in my life. im including person not social with another kids. my real friend just 4 people in the class who support me. my full life use for learn and play games. but sometime i got moment love with woman. this name woman is Nanda. Nanda including into woman popular in my school. every man in school know her. every man failling love with her except me. but destiny unite me and her in same class. im include smart person in the class, like sport like soccer and martial art too. My friend hate me because im selfish and jealous with my ability. because jealous, i got bully from another friend. this time my mind always i dont need people. but when work in group, my teacher choice me same group with nanda. in heart im speak " who need girl?? i dont need girl, i can clear work alone, not need help". in mind always opinion the girl is very noisy and despise people with appearance.
next day time work group begin, im not enthusiastic :(. im and nanda work together for clear this work. Nanda question hard question to me. im answer that with hard intonation. in my thinking if disturb her maybe she give up and dont work with me. and then im can alone to finished alone and play games again. but when i look her face, she dont angry and smile look me. why she look me and smile.
i question to her, why you smile to look me??
Nanda says "you look funny and im first see man not woo me when same work group".
i tell her " seduce you??"
nanda answer "yeah many man when same group with me, seduce and made me worried".
i tell " sorry i dont like you and dont like woman"
and then she smile when i say that. first woman who not angry with me when im disturb her. my heart beat fast.
what happen with my heart?? i got heart attack??. in the day my work half finish. tomorrow i work again with her.
and next day i got bully with kids who dont like me. because i join martial art group this man invite me to versus with his. i dont like fighting and my teacher always tell me : martial art not to fight. im not against and then his punch take hit my stomach. this hurt but im not against with battle. and then Nanda see this bully and say " Stop, if not stop i will scream and tell teacher about this accident". kids who bully me run far from location. "are you okay, R??" tell Nanda to me. "it is okay??" tell me. ""cmon, i will take you to school medical room." nanda say, "im okay" say me. nanda say to me " i dont like man who use strength for fight if you got bully with that man tell me" in my mind actually i can fight back to her. when she help me, my heart beat very hard. first time i just failling in love with someone.
next day my nice friend is tease to me. he create fake letter with my name in this letter. in letter says i love you very much you beauty etc. he sent to Nanda and then Nanda read this letter. she smile to me when she read letter. Nanda come near to me and then say " you love me??" and she smile to look my red face. im still says " of course not, just like begin to tell you, i dont like girl. this letter is fake!!" but in my heart, i love her very much. and then im thinking why i cant truth my heart to her. she smile and says "i waiting you to say that to me sometime". my face blush and became red. when that time me and Nanda very near. im escort to home together, and walk together. this is first time im protected someone and sacrifice for someone. when Nanda birthday, im save money for gift to his. but long time i will walk with her not have status corelation with his.
someday terrible day got me come be true. because im still afraid to say love to her, Nanda exboyfriend engage nanda to back to his. this day same plan i tell "i love her". i buy flower and chocolate for invite to become my girlfriend. i see nanda and her exboyfriend walk together and invite back to become girlfriend. nanda reply his invite in front my eyes. my heart is broke and destroy. my chocolate and flower throw to bin and leave. i lock myself in room and regretted my decision. nanda sms me but im always reply im sick
continous part 2
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